
Reflections from the life of an american convert to Islam
Bismillah Ir Rahman Ir Raheem
(In the Name of Allah, the Most Benevolent, the Most Compassionate)
Well got about 10 days left here in ol German Land. Insha'allah soon I will be back home with friends and family. I'm happy, excited, anxious, scared, worried, terrified all at the same time. I'm praying that my friend and family accept in my new muslim skin, and realize that I'm still changing myself. I struggle with my owns things, and while many things about me have change bad habits die hard. Astaghfirullah I know there may be some things that I will do when I'm home that will not be good, we all fall short, I know that shouldnt be an excuse, but Allah is Most Forgiving and I know that no matter what sins I may commit that I can always turn to my Rabb(Lord). I will surely try to stay away from major sins (missing prayers, fasts, drinking alcohol, abandoning my hijab). I just hope that I can use this time by myself to evolve as a muslim and a person. I am packing my computer up on thursday so that I can ship it to its (and my) new home. So, until I can get my connection hooked up I'll be away. Only allah knows how long it will take to get my internet hooked up considering I dont have a job or any income. But insha'allah it will all work out. Here's to onward and upward!